{"id":4872,"date":"2024-11-26T17:38:07","date_gmt":"2024-11-26T21:38:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blogs.ubalt.edu\/welter\/?page_id=4872"},"modified":"2024-12-01T17:57:08","modified_gmt":"2024-12-01T21:57:08","slug":"2024-delayed-gratification","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/blogs.ubalt.edu\/welter\/poetry-archive\/2024-delayed-gratification\/","title":{"rendered":"2024 Delayed Gratification"},"content":{"rendered":"
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InkTober Day 1 Backpack, Porter<\/p><\/div>\n

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Delayed Gratification<\/strong><\/h1>\n

I have never been great with impulse control.<\/span><\/p>\n

I want\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I want\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I want.<\/span><\/p>\n

It could be validation, or sex, or Anorexia, or drugs,<\/span><\/p>\n

but anything besides unmitigated hedonism<\/span><\/p>\n

frankly feels intolerable to me.<\/span><\/p>\n

I have never been great with overcoming trauma.<\/span><\/p>\n

I hurt\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I hurt\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I hurt.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dysfunction and disorders and illness and angst<\/span><\/p>\n

color the memory of my former self.<\/span><\/p>\n

Once conditioned by life to anticipate pain,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

now I reject the slightest whisper of discomfort.<\/span><\/p>\n

I have never been great with distress tolerance.<\/span><\/p>\n

I flee\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I flee\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I flee.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dopamine reigns king\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

over the land of my limbic system,<\/span><\/p>\n

so why on Earth would I ever turn down\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

the chance to finally feel <\/span>good<\/span><\/i>?<\/span><\/p>\n

I have never been great with delayed gratification.<\/span><\/p>\n

I crave\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I crave\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and I crave.<\/span><\/p>\n

But if there is one thing which separates\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

the uniquely-human capacity for reason\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

from the base instincts of the reptilian brain,<\/span><\/p>\n

it is the ability to <\/span>wait<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

when you are convinced you <\/span>need.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

And I have never been great with change.<\/span><\/p>\n

But I\u2019m trying.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m trying.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m trying.<\/span><\/p>\n

Greenstein<\/p>\n

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Shannon Frost Greenstein (She\/They) resides in Philadelphia with her family and cats. She is the author of \u201cThe Wendigo of Wall Street,\u201d a novelette with Emerge Literary Press, and \u201cThese Are a Few of My Least Favorite Things,\u201d a poetry collection from Really Serious Lit. Shannon is a former Ph.D. candidate in Continental Philosophy and a multi-time Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net nominee. Her work has appeared in McSweeney’s Internet Tendency, Pithead Chapel, Bending Genres, and elsewhere; she comes up when you Google her. Follow Shannon at shannonfrostgreenstein.com or on Twitter at @ShannonFrostGre. Insta: @zarathustra_speaks<\/span><\/p>\n

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My name is Jenna Porter and I am currently pursuing two bachelor’s degrees at Towson University, one in Information Technology and another in Art. I have had a fascination with the arts and sciences since I was very young. I love art especially because it allows me to more easily communicate my thoughts and perspective. The work “Backpack” was inspired by the popular online “InkTober” challenge, during which we make a drawing every day for the month of October. This one was made in Photoshop under the prompt “backpack.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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